Thursday, October 23, 2008

Overwhelmed

I feel so overwhelmed right now. My mother has been going through chemo for the past month or so. This is her second round. Her body is not handling it well at all. She called me Tuesday and basically had a breakdown over the phone. Getting out of bed and going to work is about the extent of what she can do. She hasn't seen Miss K in weeks. She is upset because she can't take care of her cat and is afraid that she is going to have to get rid of her. I'm going to try and get in touch with a friend who lives in her complex and see if she can't "scoop the poop" for her a couple of times a week since I can't make it over there every day.So, after I dropped K off at school, I spent the day cleaning mom's apartment and going to the market for her. I ran out of time, so I didn't get to mop her floors or dust. Brian and I are headed back over there on Saturday so that he can change out a bunch of light bulbs for her and get her patio cleaned off. So, for the next 6 or so months, I will be cleaning mom's apartment and doing her shopping for her. Brian has said that he will help me out. I know that some of my friends who work think that I have all this time on my hands and doing this for my mom shouldn't be an issue, but I don't. I might be a stay at home mom, but I am never home. I feel like I am constantly running errands or going in for a doctor's or dentist appointment or taking Miss K her and there for all the things she has going on. The good thing about us going over to help mom out is that she will get a chance to see Miss K. If you are a praying kind of person, my mom REALLY needs some prayers. Chemo is suppose to help you get better, but my mom seems to be getting worse with every treatment. She is on a two week cycle of Procrit. (I think that is how you spell it.) It's $5000. Thank you Jesus for insurance. Her part is $100. If she does not respond to the Procrit, they are going to have to do a blood transfusion and that has her really freaked out.

So...the next 10 days are going to be so freaking busy for us! Friday we have a Halloween party. I've got my goodie bags made up with the tags on them. I made 30 crafts for the kids to make. Ghost or Pumpkin on a stick. We are also doing the lollipop ghost. I have offered to take my friend Kennington's daughter with us. Saturday is a day to just get stuff done. We will head over to mom's and get some stuff done and then I have a couple of projects that need to be done. Sunday is our neighborhood Halloween Parade and Potluck. I am entering the pie contest, but I am not doing the chili. I'm making a peanut butter pie. It's my friend Kennington's recipe and it's a hit every time I make it. It's so easy. I wonder if they will take points off if I don't make my own crust?

Next week is just as busy with stuff going on EVERY single day. And before anyone asks...NO THE DANG SKIRT IS NOT DONE. Tomorrow Miss K will be wearing a skull and crossbones with a bow rhinestone t-shirt, skirt, hot pink leggings and her hot pink Converse high tops. That dang skirt WILL be done by Wednesday because she is wearing it to Awanas for Trunk or Treat. She is wearing it to school for the Halloween party and she is wearing it on Friday when we spend the afternoon at a friend's house hanging out for a playdate. I WILL FINISH THAT SKIRT. I WILL FINISH THAT SKIRT. I WILL FINISH THAT SKIRT!

And I don't want to even talk about my diet. I'm an emotional eater, so this week, since we've been home, I've not been real good about watching what I eat. Heck, I drank a sweet tea from Sonic today. I didn't even realized I ordered it until I took a sip. I ALWAYS order diet Coke. What's wrong with me? I don't even want to think about going in for my weigh in next Thursday. Ellen, my dietician is not going to be happy with me. I need to start journaling again so I am accountable for what I'm eating. I hate doing that. ARG.

Okay...I've complained and whined enough for tonight.

blog ya later.

4 comments:

Margie said...

Sorry to hear about your Mom not doing well. I will be praying for her. On the transfusion front, let her know it is really not that bad. It seems weird at first, but you feel much better after. I speak from personal experience as I got 2 units after Aidan was born.

*Jilly* said...

SAHM's do not have extra time..why would someone think that? Rrrrrr!

I will be praying for your mom..I am so sorry that you all are going through all of this *hugs*

As far as your diet..if you fall off the wagon one day..just try again the next day..you will get back on track..I just know it:)

Here's my vote for the peanut butter pie..'cause I know..it is yummy!!!!!

Ellen said...

Hollye-
Thanks for the update. I will definitely be praying for her--most definitely! For peace, health, and even glimpses of joy in the midst of a hard road.

Are you meeting with dietician Lynn now? Yeah!

Oh, one completely random thing...whenever I hear about a blood transfusion, I always laugh when I think of the Seinfeld episode when Jerry had to get a transfusion and he ended up getting KRamer's blood. "You got 2 pints of Kramer in you, buddy!" Let's just hope that if she does have to get a b.t., that it won't be from Kramer! :o)

Lianna Knight said...

I've been stressed this week too and your blog even made ME stressed!!

I didn't know anything about your mom...she's on my prayer list now.

Speaking of family...how is your brother???? I haven't seen, heard, talked, or anything to him in a LONG time.

Take a deep breath...everythign will work out fine ;)