Monday, November 20, 2006

Emotions's been awhile. We have had so much going on in our household. We left Tennessee at 2:00 Tuesday afternoon and arrived a little after midnight in Michigan. Miss K did not go to sleep until 2:30am and she only napped for about an hour in the car. LONG trip, but she did so good. So, we spent 3 days in a hotel while Brian was in a workshop and then we headed to my inlaws house Friday after looking at some apartments and having lunch.

So...emotions. ALL over the place right now.

*Mad....I am sick again. I hate being sick and am really mad that I have to deal with this during the holidays. I am mad at myself for being so unorganized and not being able to bring some things with me that I wanted to.

* be spending time with my inlaws. My sister in law and her husband will be here on Wednesday and I can't wait to see them. Have I ever mentioned that I love my inlaws? (That is not a joke...I LOVE my husband's immediate family.) Happy that my husband is off the entire week of Thanksgiving and can spend some quaility time with his family.

*Stress...stuff going on with Brian's job that he has asked me not to mention in detail on my blog. He is not stressed out about it, but I stress enough for both of us. And, my dog had a seizure about 3 hours into our drive and my Mom had to rush her to the vet. I cried and cried. I told Brian about an hour before we left that I had a bad feeling about going on the trip and then that happened. I hate that I wasn't the one to be there for her.

*Sad...Brian's grandfather has been in the hosptial for the past 3 days and we don't know when he will be getting out. Sad that my mother in law doesn't feel like she is "connecting" with Miss K. She took me by surprise when she said that. Miss K is not a cuddly, lovey baby. She is very independent and would rather play by herself than have someone play with her. Maybe that is my fault? Maybe I don't show her enough attention? Am I a bad Mommy?

*Irritated... We got some information from our relocation consultant and I am irritated with the "policy" and how they aren't willing to work with us on anything. So, it is looking like I will be storing 2000 sq. feet of household goods for a year. Did I ever happen to mention that I am a pack rat?. This also means that I am losing ALL of my scrapbook space.

*Thankful... My parents are NOT going to the Middle East for work. I know that my father was looking forward to the job, but I am so thankful that they are staying in the states. I wanted to be excited for them with this opprotunity, but it was hard to imagine them being so far away in an area where there is so much going on. I am thankful for my beautiful daughter and my wonderful, loving and supportive husband. I am thankful for my annoying, but loving family. Thankful that my mom is staying at my house and watching my doggies and kitties so that we can go on our trip.

Okay...I am off to bed. Brian and his dad get up at 4:30 to go hunting, so I need to get some things ready for him in the morning. Tomorrow my mother in law and I are going shopping. She wants to buy Miss K a new pair of shoes. Miss K is OBSESSED with shoes. Oh...Miss K has really come out of her shell on this trip. My MIL has an Amish girl, Gina that works for her. Miss K LOVES Gina. She gets so excited when she sees Gina and when she leaves, she will ask me, "Where she go?" She actually asks the question. She stayed with my MIL for about 2.5 hours while Brian and I took his Grandmother into Battle Creek to her chemo appointment. And my child, who usually cries everytime I leave her, did not cry one single time while we were gone. YEAH!

Okay...I've gone on and on about nothing. I hope that you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving. Sorry no photos this time. My inlaws still have dial up...too slow!


Renee Graham said...

Bless your heart. I know you were probably just venting to clear your head and don't need any comments, but for as little as I know of you, YOU ARE A GREAT MOMMY!

Renee Graham said...

going thru emotions here too. missing my family-in st. clair, mi. wish we could have stowed away with you. happy thanksgiving!

TracieClaiborne said...

Oh my goodness - she speaks? I can't even imagine her little voice saying that. I am in shock. LOL

I'm so sorry your trip was stressful. I hope your dog is okay even though I don't like dogs. I do like you though. I hope you're feeling better too!

Love you!

Anonymous said...

Hopefully writing down your feelings will help. Moving is such a stressful time. Luckily you will be mvoing near family and that can help with the adjustment.
Enjoy preparing for the holidays!