Sunday, December 20, 2009

Lots on my mind...

I've got a lot of stuff on my mine. I could go on for days about crap that I've been dealing with, but it just makes me depressed. I can't even get into the Christmas spirit. That totally sucks because K really gets Christmas this year. I just have to keep telling myself that I need to be the best parent I can be. I can't control how other people parent or treat their kids. I know that I can be "that' parent. I have been called an "over achieving parent" to my face several times and I am sure it's been said behind my back a million times. Honestly, I don't give a damn. At least I WANT to be a parent. I put my child's needs before my own. Isn't that what you are suppose to do as a parent? Do I have it wrong? I expect a lot out of myself as a parent and in my own eyes, I fall short....a lot. I am totally rambling now.

Tomorrow starts a new week. The week of Christmas. If it kills me, I will make this a Christmas that K will remember. As much as I hate to admit tree isn't even decorated yet! It's been up for weeks. How sad is that. Tomorrow I have to go downtown and take care of a few things. Then K and I are coming home and we are going to get busy. We are going to make some cookies and decorate our tree. And when Brian gets home, we are going to make our gingerbread house. This year, we are putting the dang thing together with Gorilla Glue! I'm not messing with that icing to hold it together!

It's super late and I must get to bed. I don't know if I will get a chance to blog must before the end of the year. I wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Blog ya later!

1 comment:

Pam said...

Hi Hollye. I just checked out your blog and just read this...which would be in form for me as I can barely keep up with my own blog!

From what I have read, you sound like a great parent..I think people who are critical of people for being over achiever parents are just jealous or uncomfortable with their own parenting and wishing they could be as good at it as you are! I think we all have our times where we will always beat ourselves up that we don't do enough as a a parent..its hard..and exhausting always putting them first, even though we want to..still isn't easy!!